A Song To Pass The Time

i listened to Bright Eyes album Fevers and Mirrors the other night as i walked along a lonely park at night.

there was quite a few lines that really got to me. there is a bit of hope in that album, so this one's for Jeff:

"So there still is hope, yes I can be healed. There is someone looking for what I've concealed in my secret drawer, in my pockets deep, who will find the reasons that I can't sleep, and will still want me. Will you still want me?"

mist from the rains made me feel like i was walking in the shadows of a waterfall.

the loss of a lot of numbers and money

i lost my phone. it may be a while before i buy a new one seeing as how they are expensive. so if you need to call me, just call 706-275-9988. leave a message.

in the dead of winter life sprang forth

"In the spring I burned over a hudred acres till the earth was sere and black, and by midsummer this space was clad in a fresher and more luxuriant green that the surrounding even. Shall man then despair? Is he not a sproutland too, after so many searings and witherings?"

i did buy some really sweet Thoreau writings and a book called "Who Shot Ya?" its a book of photographs of rappers. it included Flava- Flav.

"Let me say to you and to myself in one breath, Cultivate the tree which you have found to bear fruit in your soil."

i sat in jessi petty's apartment and talked about life and felt normal, and jealous of a normal life.

i looked at her book shelf and scolded myself for not being as smart as some people. *its only now i realize that its more in the heart. maybe i can have a good heart.



so after drinking my sweetwater ale, i turned on the tv. some show called One Tree Hill was on, and it made me actually want to watch it. it seemed to have really good music and boasted having Jimmy Eat World play on three episodes. Damn Jimmy Eat World is good.

so i think tomorrow i am going to drop my Cinema as Literature class. im just tired of having to explain why i think something is beautiful or not beautiful.

sad or happy.

too long, too short.

too bright, too dull.

just right or way off.

i guess somewhere in Asbury i just got burned out on making simple things so complicated.

i like art because i think its pretty for different reasons. im tired and worn out from explaining myself and i dont want to know what symbolism flowers carry throughout "Monsoon Wedding" and "City Lights".

i tried to go for a walk earlier so i could clear some things up, but it started to sprinkle. i think i might try it again right now. i need to clear up some thoughts before i try to sleep.

"love covers a multitude of sins" thanks jeff

love well young man while you still can

old friend, your hourse is ready to ride from this church town where damning rumors drip from Holy tongues.

looking down from their stained glass steeple they'll never know why you had to run.

ride as fast as you can, they're shooting to kill.

i enjoy talking to normal people who dont think you're shit when you disobey God. and also to those who obey God normally.

today i worried about chemistry.

i prayed.

i got a 90 and a 100 on quizzes.

*damn you Jeff Green for quoting such relevant verse. we shall talk more.

today im deciding whether or not to go through with my plans to travel to ATL and see Maserati with Sarah. we made plans, but i might just Eff it up and not go. still thinking.

For The Record

im not a chemistry major. im just taking a chemistry class at Dalton College.

and i devote most of my time running from who i am supposed to be, and running into Football.

sometimes i listen to too much music and i cant sleep at night because my brain wont stop.

jessi petty called, yay.

so i went snooping around on Solid State Records site and i found some sweet metal bands. things that remind me of old school death metal mixed with the classic breakdowns found in old school Metallica albums. yes thats right, and i like it.

death metal, as in gurgling out noises. and dueling diddlywailin' guitars. there were about two lines i could hear: "make a choice, whose side are you one?" and "the weak are marching on"

excellent.

since 1999 i haven't touched Adobe Photoshop. somehow we got a copy at home and i loaded it. i will now resume my 6 year absense on the Photoshop canvas. this is what i made.

You Will Always Hurt

"First there was the dawn / and I couldn't sing a song to you / then there came the rain / but I couldn't seem to blame you

sometimes it rains / sometimes it floods you / sometimes you bleed / sometimes you just need to make it through / make it through

you will always hurt / you will always sting

you're my badlands / my grand canyon / my empty stream / you're my reservation / my second place consolation / my devastation / a thorn / a pang / a deep dark heartache / my greatest fear / a lonely tear / hopelessness / an empty caress / an earthquake / a broken plate / lost innocence / a cheap defense / my delusion / my confusion / a cancer / a wrong answer / a lost game / fickle as fame / a bad critique / a glass that leaks / a fallen leaf / talk too shallow / ground that's fallow / fatal attraction / nuclear reaction / false resurrection / thrown election / you're my silence / my violence / you're a sad song / you're a long, long, long, long way from home

you will always hurt / you will always sting / cause you won't let go of everything / until you're quiet one dark night / and you give up the fight you've fought so long / and find that trust is not a game / that naive stupid people play in youth / and you let it rain / you let it flood / you let it drive out all the pain of love" - Lori Chaffer

good fun in 4/4 time

"My piercings smell like ass."- Anonymous

smiling and floating

ive had two dreams recently:

1. Nolan Ryan came back out of retirement to pitch for the Atlanta Braves.

2. Brandon Owens and I had the ability to fly. I guess we were always on top of some mountain that was on the coast. We would fly down off the mountain to the shore and then fly back up and do it again. Oh yeah, there we also happened to always have our Ipods on. This dream had a sweet soundtrack.

i just found two blogs on this thing. http://mountains-of-iran.blogspot.com/ the mountains are calling and i must go

this one is for John http://lull.blogspot.com/

i found this one too....
Q: Is there any better way to say that a couple is actively trying to have a baby than, "They've pulled the goalie?"-- Bassel, Sunnyvale, Calif.
SG: Absolutely not. It's the single-best thing that hockey has done for our culture since Barry Melrose single-handedly saved the mullet.

good times at dalton high

today i hung out with Jeff Green in a coffee shop in downtown dalton.

neither of us had any cash, as we are now high tech, so the dude just gave us some coffee.

then i studied with someone for chemistry. for 2 hours.

i feel good about it.

over the past few decades

over the past few weeks lots of stuff has happened and i havent taken the oppurtunity to write about it all. ive been very busy procrastinating school, watching football, playing fantasy football, and playing football on XBOX. and drinking lots of Ale-8 soda from Kentucky.
in indiana i bought an old bike from an Amish man, a sweet bike at that, although im beginning to feel that i might be too big for it ( i hit my knee).

i cruised around Goshen Indiana on this new shiny bike with Jeremy and Greta, Brandon and Jean Owens, and tried to sell my laptop computer.

i stopped at rest station along the interstate and drank free coffee and ate free cookies. and talked to nice people.

i took pictures while driving, sometimes of old men that looked like asian rice field workers.

i came home and went to Rome Georgia, and found Tim Carter, and his ex girlfriend, and current awesome friend, Shannon Wilson.

i hooked up with John Lull, then we hooked up with the Dynamic Duo.

we went to the Rome International Film Festival and saw some SWEET short animation films and some pretty good "experimental" short films. one of them contained a man in a suit. the man was made of water, and when a boy touched his shoulder, he splattered to the ground. i started laughing a lot. i think there was some metaphor about manhood somewhere in the film, but i thought it should have been called "Who killed the Water Man?"

then i came home and went up onto a mountain, "got served", then came down off the mountain determined to make myself fit onto my bike, and to study chemistry.

then i met some friends at Wendy's in Ringgold and eventually we hung out at The Triangle Park, and a girl let me wear her Ben Folds jacket so i could keep warm.

im waiting for the Fall with open eyes.

today i drove to Fort Mountain State Park.
i was looking for a word from God about college and life.
i got one about life.

Other: Why don't you just freaking go study chemistry?
Jesse: because id rather be lazy and only do things that are easy.
Other #2: Sometimes doing things that you hate builds character.
Other: Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

my favorite are the "Damn right" Kenny, and the monkey Kenny
http://www.menwholooklikekennyrogers.com/gallery14.html

the onion

why have i never read the onion? i mean, i find most "news" absurdly one sided or simply humorous. the onion is my type of newpaper!

this junk:

http://www.theonion.com/content/node/40315

a hope

so i got accepted to UGA, now i just need to figure out if Forestry is what i really want to do. if that is the case, then i will take out additional loans to be able to do it. please pray for me that i would hear God's voice correctly.

i will never leave you nor forsake you.

life

ive been accepted to attend the University of Georgia in Athens for this spring, although i dont think i will have enough money to be able to go. thats some real poop.

ive kind of been thinking about what to do if i cant go, here are my options: maybe keep a class or two at Dalton and try to bring my GPA up, or get a job, move out and start living. something will happen.

"We're lost and wandering. Deep in the Ocean there lies a wave for you." - sunny day real estate

id go to www.esterdrang.com and click extras, then download "The Temple Mount Is Ours" movie. excellent live recording. freak yes.

i want to live where soul meets body and let the sun wrap its arms around me.
-Death Cab For Cutie


in indiana i bought a sweet old schwinn bicycle from a 77 yr old Amish man who repairs them and sells them dirt cheap in his front yard. if you want a sweet 15$ cruiser bike, lemme know and ill send ya to him.

i also bought this really old RCA speaker cabinet for my record player.

this morning i listened to NYC breakers, this old album i was supposed to give Reeve but i kinda didnt get around to it. then i listened to Headphones, then the Death Cab promo single that comes with the new cd if you pre-ordered it. i didnt pre-order it. i just asked a guy with a mustache at CD warehouse if i could buy one. they are not for retail sale. i bought it for 3 bucks.