in the dead of winter life sprang forth

"In the spring I burned over a hudred acres till the earth was sere and black, and by midsummer this space was clad in a fresher and more luxuriant green that the surrounding even. Shall man then despair? Is he not a sproutland too, after so many searings and witherings?"

i did buy some really sweet Thoreau writings and a book called "Who Shot Ya?" its a book of photographs of rappers. it included Flava- Flav.

"Let me say to you and to myself in one breath, Cultivate the tree which you have found to bear fruit in your soil."

i sat in jessi petty's apartment and talked about life and felt normal, and jealous of a normal life.

i looked at her book shelf and scolded myself for not being as smart as some people. *its only now i realize that its more in the heart. maybe i can have a good heart.



so after drinking my sweetwater ale, i turned on the tv. some show called One Tree Hill was on, and it made me actually want to watch it. it seemed to have really good music and boasted having Jimmy Eat World play on three episodes. Damn Jimmy Eat World is good.

so i think tomorrow i am going to drop my Cinema as Literature class. im just tired of having to explain why i think something is beautiful or not beautiful.

sad or happy.

too long, too short.

too bright, too dull.

just right or way off.

i guess somewhere in Asbury i just got burned out on making simple things so complicated.

i like art because i think its pretty for different reasons. im tired and worn out from explaining myself and i dont want to know what symbolism flowers carry throughout "Monsoon Wedding" and "City Lights".

i tried to go for a walk earlier so i could clear some things up, but it started to sprinkle. i think i might try it again right now. i need to clear up some thoughts before i try to sleep.

"love covers a multitude of sins" thanks jeff