i just finished an awesome book, The God of Small Things, by Arundhati Roy.

i have a feeling that it might be one of those books that will shape the rest of my life. some of the books that have already done such a thing are: A Sand County Almanac, The Grapes of Wrath, Thoreau's writings, and probably a few others that i cant remember right now.

after thinking about what this book is about, right now, all i can think to say is that it is about the sadder parts of life. its about Despair, Loss.

why would i find such a sad book to be so good? i dont know, but i guess it makes me feel like i want to help people.

sometimes i worry i will abandon Landscape Architecture and just be a Social Worker or something.

when i think of what i want to do in my life, the only thing i can come up with is "I Just Want To Help People".

What is Despair? Who wears Loss like a cold familiar blanket, carried by a child? Who can Free people? Who casts off Despair and Replaces with Hope? Who can mend wounds and turn Lost Years into strength?

Who stands at the door, Knocking?