The Birth and Death of Desire

Where does Desire find its home, and where does the Death of Desire begin?

kentucky was good last weekend. very good. i could write a lot of stuff but ive thought ill keep it simple.

i think god has been trying to tell me something for about a week now. i dont really know why someone would still try to tell you things even though the receiving end doesnt want to hear a damn thing you have to say.

it had something to do with the birth and death of desire.

there is a parable about someone who found something very valuable, and sold everything so he could keep it.

"Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant in search of fine pearls; on finding one pearl of great value, he went and sold all that he had and bought it." Matthew 13:45

i dont know, but this parable has been on my heart for a couple of weeks now, and it saddens me to the bones. the only thing i can think of it is that i havent treated the kingdom of god this way, and that makes me think. it brings me to a point of recognition i suppose. recognition of a topic that i shant discuss here for various reasons.

all that said, god was talking to me a lot this weekend i think, and ive got to think about these things and decide what to do.